I really hope Commander Shepard never works for the suicide hotline. I really do.

It would be … a massacre.

I have officially lost hope in the ME fandom. 

It just occurred me that when I’m playing my quarian infiltrator and there’s a turian in my team, I’m just like “DEXTROS UNITE!”

And when there’s another quarian, I’m like “BITCH, I LOVE THAT COLOR ON YOUR VEIL!”

I finally get the M-98 Widow (my favorite-est sniper rifle in ME) and it gives me a -9% weight penalty. THANKS.

Mass Effect 2 // Mass Effect 3

I love Mordin. I just love him. He brings so much depth to the salarian race. He has so many layers. He isn’t this monster who destroyed a species with the genophage. He cares about the galaxy. He cares about every single person in the galaxy. He bears the burden knowing it will haunt him, knowing it might one day kill him because he cares too much to let anyone else carry that burden. It has to be him. Not because he’s the most intelligent. Not because he’s strong enough. Because he refuses to let anyone else suffer those choices. And he feels so guilty for all the things he’s done. Enough that he’s driven to open a clinic on Omega and help people free of charge. Enough he’s willing to kill people to protect them. Enough he’ll go into dangerous territory to rescue his wayward student. Enough he’s willing to potentially sacrifice his life defending the human race. Enough he’s willing to die so the krogan can live. Never tell me Mordin is a monster. He does the things he does so no one else is forced to. He suffers the guilt so they don’t have to.

(Source: heckboy, via urdnotbonkers)

Note to self: do not look at creepy ME3 gif of Ashley-geist at night. Because suddenly my kitchen appliances start making tapping noises and I have to go outside to get something out of the car. >.<

Holy shit. I had the best team on ME3 MP tonight. Badass motherfuckers. Bravo, guys, bravo.

That is all.

Though my pride screams “no” my heart demands I apologize for my previous post calling out the little bakers of Retake ME3 as morons. So prepare for my not-so-eloquently written contradiction of the aforementioned post.

First, I’d like to point out the ending(s) confused me just as much as the next person. Virtually everything about it made absolutely no sense. Particularly when I saw Joker zipping through a Mass Relay with the same exact squad I had back on Earth. Why did they leave the battle? Wouldn’t they have rushed to defend Shepard when they saw her get knocked out? Maybe they thought she was dead and retreated, believing the battle on Earth was lost. But that doesn’t sound right. I would hope, anyway, that Liara and Ashley would verify Shepard was dead before utterly abandoning the battlefield. And if they had stayed that long, they would have seen her limping towards the Conduit and helped her. That, at least in my mind, would have made more sense. I find it hard to believe the people who’d been with Shepard since the beginning would simply flee.

Another thing I want to point out is that while I don’t exactly support Retake ME3, I don’t really … care. They believe they’re right and there’s not a damn thing I can do about it. So why waste the effort calling them bad names and trying to hurt their feelings? I could blame it on an arsenal of personal problems, I suppose. But that’s no excuse. And at the end of the day I just don’t care. I can live with the ending. I can also live with expanding on the ending to explain what happened. Either way, my lashing out at Retake ME3 was uncalled for. Since if I don’t actually care there should be no reason for me to even involve myself in the situation, yes?

It didn’t help matters when I tagged my post ‘retake me3.’ This was a sure way to pick a fight and I’m sorry.

Now, why don’t I support Retake ME3? As you can probably guess from my handle I’m a die hard Bioware fan and when Retake ME3 first came into play, they sounded utterly insulting towards my favorite developer. I had just finished playing what I believed to be a great accomplishment in gaming and I couldn’t understand why so many people were upset about the last five minutes, since I strictly follow “it’s not so much the destination as the journey” philosophy. To me the ending shouldn’t have mattered as much as it did to some people. I was more concerned that my favorite LI, Thane Krios, had been given so little screen time. How my character’s romantic relationship with him somehow seemed a waste to pursue in ME2 because it ended up feeling like just a fling. And I’m not a just-a-fling kind of girl.

But even that didn’t matter so much to me that I’d actively protest against it. The romances in these games aren’t my central concern. They’re nice to have, but my Shepard is a little too busy trying to save everyone’s asses to go on dates and sing karaoke with her crew. But this is my opinion. This is how I play my story. I shouldn’t force it down anyone’s throat. It’s unfair of me to demand that all players think alike and appreciate what I appreciate. Everyone is different and thinks differently and wants different things. Instead of encouraging this I attempted to stomp on it. Again, I’m deeply sorry.

The ultimate reason I don’t support Retake ME3 is the attitude of some of its campaigners towards Bioware. Some of you—not all of you—have taken to destructively criticizing the company. I’m the kind of person where if someone were to insult something I made, something that was important to me, I wouldn’t reward them with change. I don’t respond to anger (a defense mechanism to survive a few mentally unstable friends and relatives) because responding to it just feeds the fire. It doesn’t extinguish it. Though in recent days I’ve come to realize that there is no possible way to extinguish some fans’ anger towards Bioware and responding to it with insults and cruelty only makes them angrier. So instead of just staying away from the situation like I should have done, I lunged at it like a hungry bear. And it was wrong of me to believe that everyone opposed to the ending was immature, or that their opinions were invalid because they didn’t like what I liked.

Okay. What have I established? I don’t support certain Retake ME3 campaigners (aka the haters), even though—and my pride hurts admitting this—I agree with some of the things Retake ME3 stands for. I also admit it was wrong and hurtful for me to post the thing about the cupcakes, and I apologize to anyone I insulted. It simply was not my place, at all or ever, to do what I did. 

There you have it. A badly written apology and semi-explanation of something people probably don’t care to know about. But it’s been nagging at me.

Sincerely,

biowhore

I post nice things about something and get no notes.

I post mean things about something and I get 30+.

Guess it’s okay to be a bitch if I ever want to be popular.